My therapist long ago once told me that I would never be satisfied. I don’t know if this was the best thing to say to a person like me or if it was a blessing in disguise.
I’m still trying to figure it out.
I admire people these days that know what they want to do in life. And I don’t mean just having a job they love. I’m talking about life.
Great friends, great lover, great job, great everything.
Still not satisfied. I want more. I want be able to create & learn & love more & not hate so much.
This brings me back to the satisfaction point.
All the things I do and love satisfy me. Will other things add to my satisfaction?
Every 6 months I go through a spell. I freak out on myself. ‘Never satisfied…’ plays over and over and over again in my head.
And I don’t know how to stop it. I’m an arist. Deep down inside I yearn to create and paint and take photographs, but there is something holding back. It’s called fear and rejection. This is normal, right?